|Possibly the best picture ever. Dad feeding me birthday cake... I'm guessing 4th or 5th birthday, based on the fact that I know I have a school photo in that sweater.|
Tomorrow's my first 'First' without you. Everyone at home's had their First… this is my first one. I feel a bit nauseous to tell the truth.
I had a lovely evening tonight while I was at the movies with Phillipa, but there was a scene, where a father had to say good bye to his son. While I am not your son, it seemed to kick me in the gut in just that way... Let's just say I sniffled more than once. That's when I remembered that tomorrow will be the first time ever, that I don't talk to you on my birthday. I don't like it. Not one bit. Some part of me will still be waiting for your phone call.
You'll be in my thoughts tomorrow, Dad… I know you're always with me. Please don't worry about me too much, like I always tell you, I'm fine - promise. I have Phill and Mum, as well as Navaz & Shazeen. In addition, I've got some fantastic, loving, supportive people in my life. I'm truly blessed, Dad... so it's okay (and normal) for me to be a bit sad. I'm okay with it.
But I'll still be thinking of you and waiting for my call.
Love you & miss you,
|My KFC birthday feast. I think this was my 9th birthday... I got to pick dinner and have a friend over to join us.|
|Can't leave out my wonderful Mum & fantastic brother. Dad was behind the camera (of course.)|